Hubby turns 37

My hubby turned 37 last April 18th. We would have wanted to celebrate it some place special. There have been plans actually but we can’t go some place which will take hours for traveling. Instead, what we did was to go to the nearest park in our area. Walking under the huge trees of La Mesa Eco Park was a stress buster on its own. You can trail the whole park without feeling exhausted, must have been the oxygen from the trees. We were lucky to be gifted a nice weather as well. Another surprise was the Cultural show on the amphitheater of the place. Some cultural groups from different schools were there to perform their stuffs. One group caught my attention. They are from University of the Philippines. The name of their group was Kontemporaryong Gamelan Pilipino (Kontra-Gapi). They played all sort of cultural Filipino music. We hear them played music from different tribes. It reminds me of the time that I still play the lyre (Yes, I did! way back in high school). The music was soothing and it was nice to dance with the tunes.

Indeed we would have enjoyed the day if it was spent somewhere else. But who says, we did not enjoy nature at La Mesa Eco Park. Well, think again!

Holy Tuesday Rain

Almost a week before the Semana Santa, PAGASA had already warned Filipinos that they will be having a rainy holy week ahead. As always, we just shrugged off any news about the rain and took the weather one day at a time. As Holy Monday came in, the heat was becoming unbearable that if not for what had happened a week ago, I would have asked Hubby to bring us to the nearest resort at least so we can dip and brush off the heat. I even can't resist turning on the aircon on that night. I wake up to another hot and humid Tuesday. I was actually wishing for the rain to come. And Lo and Behold, it did rain. Jian was begging to take a rain bath together with my cousins. Childhood memories dictated that I should give in. And I did! So, this is Jian's first rain bath, ever!

And he enjoyed it so much!

at nagutom ang bujojoy ko afterwards.

When was the last time you enjoyed taking a bath in the rain?

And then I am Sad Again

It's friday once again. I am usually excited about weekends, excited because I will be on my restdays the next two days. However, today is a different friday. Today reminds me of a different thing.

It was a week since I came to know that I was pregnant with what could have been our second baby. I was so excited last week that I have been posting it to most of the sites I frequently visit. We have been waiting for another baby since time in memoriam. However, it was on that same night that I felt a sudden pain on my left lower back. I was so afraid that I immediately rested when I went home that day. I went to bed and prayed so hard that nothing will happen bad to us. I was awaken by the icky feeling on my undies. As I pee, I noticed some blood stains on them as well. I asked my husband to buy another pregnancy test kit and I tested positive again. I immediately went to the nearest hospital and seek the hellp on an Obstetrician on Duty. I was scheduled to have an ultrasound, which confirmed there was indeed a gestational sac on my uterus. The sonologists it was five weeks old. I was advised to have complete bed rest and was made to take some medications which were meant to save the baby. I immediately went on a complete bed rest as told. It was on Sunday early morning however, when our house cat suddenly jumps from nowhere on our bed. I was awaken from sleep and felt the urge to go to the toilet. As I was peeing, I felt something dropped from me, it was like a lump of blood. I was not able to check it but my husband did. He said it was a blood clot. We went on to sleep again, but I just cannot. I was worried sick. That morning I asked Hubby to call on my OB. He was hesitant because it was a sunday. But then he saw me in tears. Doctor told hubby, I will be scheduled for another ultrasound just to make sure the gestational sac is still intact. I prayed hard on that day, even calling on my deceased mom to help me. The following day was a very long day for me. It was my 33rd birthday. Yes, it was my birthday when I heard the worst news that keeps on echoing on my mind till now. The baby was no longer there. I cried so hard hanggang sa halos Impit na lang ang pag iyak ko. Tuwing me tatawag at babati ng Happy Birthday, iiyakan ko lang sila. I don't exactlyknow how I will be able to move on. Pero pag nakikita ko ang panganay ko at si Hubby, I am reminded I still have them and I need to win the fight over depression, para sa kanila.

To date, I am trying to busy myself on almost anything that won't entail so much strength. I am trying to enjoy the vacation but I can't make a smile last on my face.

I just hope that everything will be fine In His Time.